Finding one's self.
POSTED AT 12:10 PM

stephtan17

    As usual, i'm slacking again. It's been three weeks since my last blog. Argh. I told myself I need to write things down so that I could evaluate what has been happening with my life but no. I really need to blog atleast 3-4 times a week so that I could clear my head. I keep things  bottled up inside of me that at the end of the day, I feel so tired and weak.

    The sister of my good friend died last tuesday. It was a real shock and mind-opening experience for everyone, especially for me. You think that you could live forever that you keep proscrastinating things that you want or need to do. I admit that it's one of my flaws. I attended the wake awhile ago. It wasn't the sad ones that are usually done. It was actually kind of a light-hearted event. Yes, there were  moments of crying, but mostly just reminiscing memories of a wonderful person. There were no purple flowers, no dark shades of colors. Mostly white and pastel ones.

    This made me realize a lot of things. I opened up to my close friends awhile ago and now, I know what I want in my life. Thanks to a couple of GREAT friends who has always been there to guide and support me throughout. Not only the good times but also the hardships that I've encountered. Another good thing is that I got to talk to a friend of ours who's a mom of 4 kids. I know. She hangs out with us. Lol. But that's not the point. The good thing about it is that she is like our mentor. Most of our friends tell us what we want to hear. Yes. It is a good thing because it keeps our spirits up but it is also nice to know the truth even though it hurts. I will forever be grateful to God for giving me a good set of friends that are there for me no matter what and ofcourse, my mom for always being supportive and understanding. No matter how many times i've failed her, or failed myself, she's been there to comfort me and help me pull myself back together.

    You only live once, so make the most out of your life. No matter how USED this sentence may be, it is TRUE. I'm not telling you guys to get into vices or do neglectful things just so you could say that 'atleast i've tried it'. Trust me when I say that you don't want to go there, because i've been there myself and it is not rewarding. It made me even LOST than before that. What I mean by make the most out of your life is that:

1. Love the people around you, especially your family and your friends.
2. Do the things you know you want to do and
3. Do the things that you need to do in order to succeed in life.
4. Don't take yourself too seriously, it is actually good to laugh at yourself once in awhile.
5. Get crazy sometimes, shout or dance (even if you don't know how to) if that's the way you could get your frustrations out.
6. Don't be insecure. Love yourself for who you are, for there is only one you.
7. Go against the flow, be different from the usual bunch. Try to find your own style and you would see that it is way better than trying to be someone you're not.
8. Follow your dreams. Know what your passion is, and do it because if you love what you are doing, then you will succeed.
9. Remember that you make your own destiny. It is true that God has plans for us but it is also true that he set out a lot of paths for us to take, it is you who's going to choose what you want to make of yourself.
10. Every problem has a solution. No matter how hard it is, if you have the will then you can overcome it.
11. Catch your breathe. Life is crazy. Don't go overboard. If you need some time to rest, then sit back and relax. It is never wrong to give yourself a break.
12. Just enjoy the ride Smile, laugh, cry, love and live

Currently listening to: Can't Sleep - Above & Beyond
Currently feeling: rejuvenated

You'll always go back to blogging.
POSTED AT 03:48 PM

stephtan17

Currently listening to: Time of Our Lives - Paul Van Dyk